Saturday, September 24, 2005
happy bdae to qilin.
happy birthday to you dad.im so guilty.you are sick yet i didnt realise it.today is your birthday.yet you are lyin in the hospital.what can be worse than having to spend your birthday there.im unfilial.i hope you forgive mi.really wish you a happy birthday.though i know it cant possibly be.why god have to be so cruel?dad,you must get well to open my birthday present that i gave you.you are not going to die.you are going to live till you see your grandchildren.im so sorry.not able to give you happiness even on your birthday.im so useless.
nothing has goes well for me.why unhappy things keep happening and i got no control over it?the people around me..the past that keeps haunting me..i just feel like dying.but i know i have to continue living..for my dad..for my family..but im living in agony..no1 will understand me..no1 will..i hope those who know about my past or deep secrets continue keeping them..thanks..i had changed tremendiously..frm a cheerful gal to some1 full of troubles..i cant stop myself..my heart is aching..
``pigGycY ; 12:03 am