Friday, November 12, 2004
stupid com 1st of all...juz now almost typing finish le den it go close all my websites!agr..pek chek sia type so long de...humph!hahaz..now deepavali end le..i actually still wan 2 say happy deepavali de...no chance le..hahaz
2day quite sianz stay at hme whole day..den at huse watchin tv..cleaning up..online..hahaz somemore early in de mornin already feeling veri moody..den when go do moreatonce more pek chek..as i dun seem 2 b able 2 do it...agr...make mi feel so helpless too..also cuz of de nite b4 bah...abt how my attitude suxs..makin mi feel more hopeless but i;m tryin 2 change..it nt gona b easy journey..dat is certain...i'm indeed sad abt de issue n i teared 4 it...how i wish i'm a REAL angel with wings..where i can fly 2 where~ever i wanted..where dere is peace n no unhappiness at all...dis is so impossible thou...or perhaps mayb a glim of light where i can see 1 warm,big hand who can hold mi tight..give mi de warmth n de strength for mi 2 go on..go on dis tirin journey..all these r juz fantasy of mine...i juz had 2 make it come true by changing..by making myself 2 a person who no1 who hates..i wish 2 bring happiness 2 my frens n of cuz 2 myself..
i sincerely thanks 4 de pple who online console mi as i early mornin feeling moody le...hahaz n de credits goes 2 xh,sam,yh,erzi also..n nt forgettin my usual advisor...hh..pe..yx..des..wy..ek..sam..yh..n lots more but lazy 2 type la...u guys simply roxs my world..cuz of u guys dat gave mi happiness...cuz ur presence..make mi feel i'm actually loved n feel warm...thanks man..without u guys i cant survive i guess...glad 2 have u guys n of cuz de path i'm going thru now would be tough n i might b changin 2 some1 who u wun recognise..so b prepared...but i will still appreciate u all..treasure as i dun wan 2 have ani regrets ltr on which i'm havin now...feeling so troubled n vexed..dun ever think i can get rid of dis feeling so soon..i juz had 2 try means 2 settle it..but i doubt i can..i dun seem 2 have de ability 2 do so..i'm tryin...hope time can proves everything...
``pigGycY ; 1:04 am